LIFE●A Girl

Now I was talking about a girl...
The girl...I dun know her name...
Why I will talking about her...
Because of she let me meet her twice in a day...
So she gv me very deep impression...
I hv note her many time alrdy...
N I juz know she seems like very fond red colour...
So I juz call her Ms. Red...

Let me clarify why I start to notice her...
On tat day...
I was hving morning class at the college...
So follow the customary...
I hving breakfast at the canteen college...
So when I was sitting down...
I saw her with her fren...
Hving breakfast in front of my table...
N everybody know...
At the morning...juz wake up...
So hv some unconsciousness...
Her face similar with u...
So I think is u...
N then I keep thinking...
"I'm in KL...u were impossible study at my college..."
I keep calm n see again...
Really similar with u...juz she is more smaller...
Tat was the 1st meet...

After tat...
At the same day...
Because of my sister in law...
I was going McD n get minions with my senior...
I saw her again...
She was come out from toilet...
N meet me at the place tat taking sauce...
She looking me for a while than go back to her seat...
N I realize she juz looking at me after go back to her seat...

After the day...
I start notice her...
Today n yesterday...
Also meet her while waiting for the lift at my hostel...
I really wan to acquaint her...
Is it her name same with u?
Or is tat u?
Hope tt can be fren with her oneday...

LIFE●Movie day

Today like the normal weekend...

Every weekend I was very boring...

N also dun wan stay at the hostel...

At the morning...

I was going to Sunway Pyramid...

Is a nice place...

But more is focus in shopping...

Thr have many shop...

Actually I will go thr...

Juz because I hv receive a cash voucher for Ice Watch...

So today I was go thr n find the shop...

But thr were nothing...

After I hv my lunch I going back to One Utama...

For my Wolverine...

Unfortunately...

I reach One U at 1550...

N my ticket is 1830...

3hrs...wat I can do?

I juz stay at Starbuck n hving a Green Tea Latte...

When I sit thr alone n hving my Green Tea Latte...

I was thinking about many things...

Actually...(tis is from myself mind...)

When I was more growing follow the age...

I realize tat I be more alone...more quite...

Dun like before at the secondary school...

Everyday go school...chit-chating...

When the weekend was free...

Will go to St.john office...

Hlping ppl...save ppl...

St.john office...

Thr are my happiness place...

When I was sad or angry...

Go thr sure my mood will become more better than better...

But now...

Everything change alrdy...

Now at here...not much fren...

Maybe because of i realize...

Nobody can I talk heart by heart...

Finally...the one will betray u...

Feel lonely...

N now...

I dun know is because of me or anything...

When I go office...

Nobody will like me...

They r like banding me...

Is it because of I not a members at thr anymore?

Is it because of the position?

Is it because of I did anything wrong?

Or because of communication problem?

Why the meaning place for me will be like tat?

Why I must live under other ppl face?

Sometimes wan to joke...

Also need to think twice even thrice...

Because of this...

All ppl r change...

Are they happy with tis life?

I realize that thr were no peaceful...

I feel very very uncomfortable..

If I can turn back the clock or hv time machine...

I wish tat the all things never happen...

N everyone can live in happiness...

Is it possible?

The answer obviously no...

Wat should I do n wat can I do?

LIFE●Posting time

Today is the 1st day of posting...
Not to the out station...
Juz at college...
Feel some boring here...

Today hv something let me hv a deep touch...

Follow the customary...
At the morning we will do the procedure...
N then till after lunch time...
We were juz free...
Some CI will gv something to do...
N today...
After we done everything...
We start to plying...
N we ply true or dare...
Keeping spinning the pen...
My fren was take turn...
N ask by other ppl "why u still like the stupid guy..."
N she say love is blind n talk about the their story...
My other frens keep blaming her...
N I was think...
Love...is serious blind...
When you were really fall in love with someone...
You will forgive anything the ppl did...
N the 1st person tat occur in my mind is you..
I try...I try to forgive anything u do...
But I know...
I don't qualify to hv any forgiveness from u...
I feel I was do very bad to you...
I hope u can accept my sorry...

After tat I take turn...
N hv someone ask me...
"Wat u will do with ur girl other than watch movie in the cinema in couple seat..."
I think of u again...
N I was start touching...
I go to cinema for many times alrdy...
But I hvnt try to buy couple seat with my girl...
I dun know how to answer them...
I juz say nothing...
Really feel down...
Today my mind is very complicate...
Very difficult to understand my mind...
Wat my mind wan...
Is it tis kind of ppl still alive?
The ppl tat don't understand themselves...like me...
You r always irritate my mind...
Can u please juz go far away?

LIFE●New days

It suppose to be a new day for me...

Finally, I was finish my EXAM...
N go to my posting time...
The posting time for my tis,semester quite long...
3 months n 2 weeks...
My next posting venue was possible to Johor...
Because of the penang contract is expired...
So might be Johor or KL...
But sure I hv my Raya holiday...
But till now I still not yet buy my ticket for go back...
Still hv 2 more weeks...
Now I miss my everything at my hometown alrdy...
Including you...

I recognize that I still miss you thinking of you...
But the feeling...
Juz for a moment...
Like when I was insomnia...
Or listening to the music...
Sometimes, the lyrics were very touching...
It touch deeply of my heart...
N at the moment...
I will start thinking of everything of us...
Think of how we know each other...
Think of the time tat we hv been gone through...
Maybe because of my lonely...
Now's a day...
U r not mine...
We still friend right?
We still hv the time to meet up...
Hopefully tat I can handle my feeling...
My feeling tat facing u...

Now I was face some problem...
I think is my self problems...
I can't join other ppl conversation...
Even alone with tat ppl...
My communication skill been more weaken n weaken...
Maybe at here I can't find someone same type with me...

Sometimes I was very upset very stressful...
I need someone who can talk to me...
N I found tat...
When I was open my wechat or whatsapp or anything...
Thr was no anyone willing listen to me...
The only one tat willing listen to me is gone...
Now wan to find the other ppl like u...
It were not impossible...
But the percentage is very low...
N I know...
Thr were not possible for me to find u again...
U need to accompany the other's...
Not belongs to me...

LIFE●New Chapter

Long time hvnt update my blog...
In these day...
I hv go through many things...

But those things tat get me a deep hurt is...
When I was at my hometown for 1 week...
Coz I hv dengue fever n admitted to the hospital...

I was very touching...
Coz my relatives n frens were come n visiting me...
I was very happy...
Hv u all seen tat people admitted to hospital...
still can enjoying "BlackBall"?
Yah... I'm the 1...^^

But hv something let me feel disappointed...
Is u...
B'coz of u...
I put in my hope...
I hope tat every time...
I can see u when my open my eyes...
Admitted to hosp. for 3 days...
I keeping my hope for 3 days...
Finally...
I get nothing...
Even a msg from u...
Even a concern from u...

I'm very thankful for my frens tat blessed me...
I'm very disappointed n hopeless to u...
I think our friendship...
Is going to the last 3 words of the "FRIEND"...

I wan to start a new chapter of my life...
A new chapter tat the world still hv u...
I still missing u...
I still thinking of u...
And...
I will remember wat is the lesson after ur chapter...

"Don't put in ur heart, he/she may not be the last ppl with you till the end"